The Shocking Truth About My Blog Writing

Encouragement to Christian Women, Encouraging Christian Women, Encourage Christian Women, Encouragement to Women, Encourage Women I once had a blog, which was more a personal journal for my thoughts than anything else.

My daughter, Aviel, and I, took some time this morning to read through some blog post entries that I had written about two or three years ago.

At the risk of sounding proud, the writings were sincere, inspiring, and genuinely encouraging.

Reading over recent posts that I have written for Women Abiding, Aviel and I tried to analyze why these new entries seemed more stiff, impersonal, and quite frankly, boring at times.

While my daughter speculated about the reason, deep down in my heart, I knew.

The Truth Comes Out

I knew that back then

Encouragement to Christian Women, Encouraging Christian Women, Encourage Christian Women, Encouragement to Women, Encourage Women

And everything I wrote was written through the lens of my love for Him.

Confessing My Sin

I had to humble myself before this precious maiden, to whom I seek to be an example. I hesitated whether to confide that…

  • My walk with my Father has somewhat cooled.
  • My heart does not pound with excitement every time I think of the One who saved my soul.
  • I take so many of the blessings that He lovingly places before me for granted.
  • I have become all too self-sufficient and less God-dependent.

And it shows.

It shows in my writing.

It shows in my attitudes.

It shows in my priorities.

It shows in my perspective.

And it is only my God and my heart who know the truth of how far I have deteriorated.

With all my heart, I desire to say with the Psalmist:

“As a deer pants for flowing streams,
so pants my soul for you, O God.

My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.”

Psalm 42:1

Yet I know full well, that it is only by His working in me, and drawing my soul to His courts, that I can even develop this thirst and hunger for Him (tweet that if you feel humble).

I find comfort and courage in the words of James who so succinctly said in chapter 4:8, “Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you.

Is This Ringing A Bell?

If you can relate to me during this period of your life, let us together purpose to:

Encouragement to Christian Women, Encouraging Christian Women, Encourage Christian Women, Encouragement to Women, Encourage Women Read the Bible daily, spending time in His presence

Encouragement to Christian Women, Encouraging Christian Women, Encourage Christian Women, Encouragement to Women, Encourage Women       Reflect on His words of life, and apply them to our lives

Encouragement to Christian Women, Encouraging Christian Women, Encourage Christian Women, Encouragement to Women, Encourage Women       Request His guidance, and follow on the narrow path

Encouragement to Christian Women, Encouraging Christian Women, Encourage Christian Women, Encouragement to Women, Encourage Women       Rely on our Saviour, for renewed passion for Jesus

I am willing and ready to take the plunge! Will you join me? I invite you to set aside the next 4 minutes, and sing the words of this video as a prayer to our Lord.

May God have mercy on us, and restore to us the joy of our salvation!

What will you purpose to do in drawing closer to the Lord over the coming days? I would love to hear your thoughts…

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72 Responses to The Shocking Truth About My Blog Writing

  1. Esther Stuart says:

    I know exactly what you are describing Tehila, and there are days I long for the difficult times when I knew the presence of God carrying me through the stormy times.
    Why is it that we so quickly lose the passion when the crisis is over?
    I have just finished reading “When I don’t Desire God” by John Piper. I love that man! He has such a gift for getting to the heart of the issue. He distinguished the FEELINGS of joy or gratitude from the DISCIPLINE of those things. We cannot sustain the heights of rapture all the time, but we can love faithfully no matter how fickle our feelings may be.
    I wish I had the book with me so I could quote it. JP said it far better than me, but it was very encouraging to know that you are not a failure or unfaithful to God when life is discouraging and we seem to lose our delight in him. He has often allowed his precious servants to go through times of darkness and depression simply to demonstrate his amazing sweet kind compassion and love for us when we are most vulnerable.
    Here’s a suggestion to do with Aviel:
    Why don’t you start at the beginning of the Bible and consider every character who ever suffered from depression or feelings of disillusionment, then make a note of what God did through that experience of dryness in that person’s life. I am sure you will be very encouraged. I will do the same and we can compare notes on Facebook, like an online bible study!
    Are you keen?
    Maybe others will join in too.

  2. Liz Gregory says:

    Beautiful and honest. Thanks. I’m turning the computer off now :-)

  3. Linda says:

    It’s strange how subtly and easily we slip into times of spiritual lethargy. When we really take an honest look at where we’ve been and where we are, it’s hard to believe that we choose mediocrity over such beauty. Thank you for the reminder to always be paying attention to our spiritual journey.

    • womenabiding says:

      Yes, it is only by God’s grace that He doesn’t allow us to slide backwards, or even stay where we are. He is a faithful and loving Father who gently pushes us in the right direction – towards Him!

  4. Thank You for your honest and inspiring words. It’s so easy to allow oneself to become cool and independent in our walk with the Lord. The reminder of the truly important is such an important one.

  5. Wow, what an open and honest confession. I know that I’ve gone through seasons of being on fire and seasons of cooling off. I think we need to distinguish the raw emotional aspect from the fellowship aspect, because I believe it’s possible to be walking with the Lord and not have that mountaintop experience every day. But on the other hand, if by cooling off you mean slipping in our walk with the Lord, then that’s a different thing. I know I’ve gone through cycles like that as well.
    And it’s interesting that you point out how that affects the rest of your life in a very real and almost tangible way. So often we pay lip service to the difference, but you’ve pointed out an observable difference. What a great reminder about getting our priorities right!
    But the good news is that God gives second chances and third chances and 544th chances, so sinners like us can come back to him always.

    • womenabiding says:

      Thanks for your note, Loren.
      God is merciful in that even when I’m not faithfully practicing the disciplines of daily being in His Word, praying, serving the Body as I should, He has never let me out of His sight! I am His, and nothing can pluck me out of His hand. It is to my own detriment when I am not actively drawing closer to Him day by day, but doesn’t affect my stand in His righteousness. Praise the Lord!!! If my salvation was dependent on my actions and deeds, I wouldn’t last a moment in His Kingdom! God bless you and thank you again for dropping by…

  6. Great reminder. I know I need to be more committed. I am so quick to find an excuse not to when it is the very water for my soul. Thanks for your honesty.

    • womenabiding says:

      Yes, Lindsay! For some reason we shoot ourselves in the foot by making excuses, when the very Giver of Life waits to pour His Living Water into our being. I appreciate your honesty too!

  7. Kim Oldfield says:

    Grace and peace to you,

    I’m thankful to be reading your blog. I can so relate in many ways to what The Lord has revealed to you.
    It has been four years now since we first met. I count it an honor to be able to be a part of your journey in The Lord because of our meeting.
    I believe we have the same “heart cry” as I call it, and that is to be in the presence of the Lord and invite others to join us.
    There are times one feels so isolated even when surrounded by others. It is because of this I believe that we, who are HUNGRY for the presence of the Almighy, must encourage one another as “long as it is called today” (Hebrews).
    I know I am one who needs it.
    Thank you and blessings to you,
    Kim

  8. Funny you should write about this today….

    I just finished my blog post for today and linked to Titus 2usday on Time Warp Wife. I was scanning the other posts and this one caught my eye…..

    This is exactly what I wrote about today.

    Isn’t it amazing how much your life (and writing) suffers when you aren’t seeking God? Things just slowly fall apart!

    So glad you were convicted of this and are getting back on track…..so am I :) I am committed to this right along with you…’iron sharpening iron’! Have a blessed day!

    • womenabiding says:

      Thanks for identifying with me, Nicole! Great minds think alike :-) Although having said that, we all go through the valleys in our walks with the Lord, so chances are that millions are there right when we are… appreciate your company as I leave the low place, and head for the heights of His Truth!

  9. Tani says:

    Things must be bad with me because I feel like leaving a reply along the lines of “Oh, yes, I used to be like that too”!
    Lord God, change my heart, show me once again that I am a complete beginner, unable even to overcome the most basic everyday sins. Don’t let me fool myself. I haven’t even started.

  10. Ana Sullivan says:

    I’m so glad I found you from Time Warp Wife Titus 2uesdays. I am right with you with a renewed commitment. I even enjoyed your video insert. I liked the Psalm 51 at the end. I will subscribe to you. Please visit me in preparing for Christmas at:
    http://www.thelostapron.com/2012/12/preparing-for-christmas.html

  11. Rachel G. says:

    Isn’t the Lord so gracious to us that He GENTLY reminds us of things like this and brings us back to where we should be with Him! He isn’t rough or judgemental but like a shepherd draws us back, He loves us that much :)
    ABIDE IN HIM and HE WILL ABIDE IN YOU.

  12. Ashley Ditto says:

    Wow, this is so amazing. Thank you for writing this, I needed this encouragement. Bless you.

  13. Margaret Herud says:

    You are an inspiration and you always inspire me to desire more of our precious Lord as you seek to serve Him more wholeheartedly yourself. Thank you for volunteering to expose yourself so honestly and humbly in order to encourage others to share in your journey – you are a dear and special friend to me and so many others too. Thank you Dear Tehila!!

  14. This is such an honest post. I seem to fall on this pattern at times, and reading back on my posts I can tell when I was really feeling God’s fire in my heart vs just writing a post. Thanks for reminding the importance of refreshing our hearts. I am doing an Advent study and it has refocused me during this season as I move towards coming closer to Jesus.

    • womenabiding says:

      Thank you Angie! I appreciate you relating to me. There is no condemnation for those who are in our Lord, so even when deep down we know that our posts are reflecting a low-point in our walks with Him, it’s as simple as starting to “do the right thing”, get back in the Word, spend time at His feet, and His love and inspiration are with us in the posts to come. What a faithful God we serve! Grateful for your comment…

  15. Lori says:

    I learned early on that if left to my own devices, I’d choose my computer over the Word every time. Or at least put it first. But the Holy Spirit, in his winsome sweetness convicted my heart of misplaced priorities and the need to set up boundaries to fence in my wandering heart. Since then, I’ve made a commitment that I don’t turn on the computer until I’ve met with the Lord. Since he’s the source of my inspiration, that has kept the channel flowing and my heart well watered. Thanks for sharing your journey. I’m visiting from Be Not Weary and glad I did.

    • womenabiding says:

      Amen Lori! I swing between two ways… On one hand, being with the Lord first thing in the morning before I go to my computer, is always a blessing. But because I fear that my time with Him may be cut short due to my impatience to check my emails, I have started to go into my inbox first, scan what’s in there, and then I’m all relaxed and fine to leave it until later. I find my time spent with the Lord thereafter is much more focused and relaxed. I do have periods when I do it the way you mentioned too, though. You’ve inspired and helped me with your comment!

  16. Annie Kate says:

    I wish you all you need to respond to this message from God. I need it too. May the Lord bless all his people who are too busy doing instead of being.

  17. Jelli says:

    What a great encouragement and reminder. I find the same to be true both in my writing and in my daily life. If I’m in the Scripture daily, my attitude and outlook reflect that. Found you from We are that Family. Have a great week!

  18. Stacie says:

    I love how the Lord showed you your apathy. Isn’t that like Him? I think it is wise to continually question why we blog. Are we doing it for our glory or His? What is the point of this post? Is it to make me look more spiritual? Is it to brag? Is it to boast? Or is it directing people to a Savior? Is it giving Him honor and glory? Is it a testimony? Is it serving younger women who might need encouragement as they mother?

    Thank you for being so honest!

    • womenabiding says:

      Stacie, your input is such a blessing to me! Being new to blogging, I needed to hear this, and will be writing your challenging questions down, keeping them in front of me when I write each post. Thank you so much!!!

  19. Naomi M says:

    Found you from WholeHearted Home…

    Thank you for sharing. I have been struggling in this area lately and this post was just what I needed to read today.

  20. I thought of this song as I was reading through your blog and wanted to share. It’s by Paulette Wooten (she plays with Kim Hill) and it’s a beautiful song. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. Thanks for your blog – I stumbled upon it making my linky party rounds. Guess He knew I needed to read this far more than I needed to promote myself. :) Bookmarked!
    https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/settle-here/id461475666 (We Draw Near)

    • womenabiding says:

      Thanks Dee! I did listen to the song, and it’s beautiful! God has a way of leading us right where He wants us, despite our own plans. I’m so thankful that He does that…God bless you and thanks for stopping by!

  21. Judith says:

    Thank you for being so honest and real in this post. There are ebbs and flows in our Christian walk but I hope to grow closer to the Lord throughout my life and not slip far off the path for more than a moment. Thank you for linking up over at WholeHearted Home this week.

  22. Thank you for linking up to Desire to Inspire. I love this post – the honesty, the truth. I’ve had a similar experience – looking back at some of my past writing and seeing a passion that I feel is missing now. Thank you for inspiring me to rekindle that passion. And as you know, there’s only one way to do it. By abiding in Him.

    • womenabiding says:

      God bless you, Amanda! I appreciate your honesty too. It is indeed good to look back and review why our words and writing have lessened in passion. I guess it’s true for writing as it is for speaking, “Out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks” (or fingers type!)… I’m truly excited that you stopped by the Women Abiding blog!

  23. Lisa notes says:

    Taking your challenge and clicking over to sing with Keith Green right now. Thanks!

  24. Susan says:

    Transparency – exactly what the Body of Christ must be in this age & season we are all living in. Let’s stop playing dress up and let’s bear it and share it.
    Hear! Hear! for more blog posts like this. We are all cracked pots in the hands of our amazing and gracious Master Potter.
    Write on, sister!

    • womenabiding says:

      What an ENCOURAGEMENT you are to me, Susan! Thank you so much for your words of exhortation… Even though it may not come easily to “bear it and share it” as you put it so well, it is always a blessing to lay down any masks and facades, and be REAL! And do you know what… it gets others to do the same… It starts with US! Loved loved loved your comment! Hope you’ll come round here again!!! xxx

  25. HisFireFly says:

    amen and AMEN. All that we are comes from that place of abiding… His door is wide open, waiting for us all.

  26. Jen says:

    Oh my friend, how I can relate to that shriveling branch when not connected to His grace. This post makes me cry….”forgive us Lord. Forgive us thinking that we can write (or do anything) without you!” What a blessing your words are! So agree, lets stay connected to HIM! :)

    • womenabiding says:

      Absolutely Jen! It is reaching a place of much humility before our Lord, and giving this platform to Him, having Him do through us, what He would like… Your comment blessed me SOOOO much! God’s blessings to you, my friend..

  27. Amy says:

    Been there, done that, have several of the T-shirts! I pray that your spiritual fire be reignited and burn brighter than ever before. Father, draw your servant unto yourself and may her daughter watch in amazement at what You do.

  28. True. I have been there and can relate. Our walk is up and down, near and far. But praise the Lord for your faithfulness to return to Him and hold Him close to your heart :) Thanks for sharing over at CMB!

    • womenabiding says:

      Thank you so much for your encouragement, Nikki! We certainly are on a journey, and the Lord is the One who never lets go of our hand on the narrow path. He is so gracious! God bless you!

  29. This is so true. I can tell when I’m not spending enough time with the Lord. My writing also becomes stiffer, more “manufactured.” Thanks for this good reminder.

  30. momstheword says:

    This is so beautifully honest and transparent. The cry of your heart is not alone, my friend. I’ve heard it before from others and have echoed it myself.

    I love what you said about the application because that is so true. What good is reading the word if we don’t apply it?

    I remember when I was single, I just couldn’t understand why my married relatives and married friends had such a hard time getting into the Word. I was very disciplined and just couldn’t understand why they couldn’t be too.

    Then I got married, and eventually had children, and then I “got it.” It is easy for me to get busy and put it off and put it off and then do a quick “Happy Meal” kind of a study and prayer, instead of a feast. That’s why accountability is so good!

    Thank you for encouraging us all today and thank you for linking up to “Making Your Home Sing Monday!”

  31. I find myself in that situation often … strayed away, my heart invisibly drawn to other things. I listened to Keith Green and was so blessed, worshiping the Lord. This morning I awoke and lay in bed talking to the Lord. I think this is where I need to start each day, before my feet hit the floor, getting my heart connected to His. I will commit to do this daily.

    Thanks so much for sharing and encouraging ~ Mary

  32. Beth says:

    Thanks for being so transparent, friend. I’ll pray for you as you make this new recommitment. My time with God is so important to me, but I know I’ve gone through seasons when it’s been crowded out by the demands of my schedule or “little ones” tugging at me when I sat down to read. It can be a tough balance, but it’s so worth it, isn’t it? :)

  33. {Melinda} Thank you for your honesty. I feel the same way. When I’m in tune with God, my writing is so much more real, honest and insightful. Without it, it feels forced and not all that inspiring. Every day, I remind myself I can do nothing without Him. Nothing. He is the Source of all inspiration. Every time I forget that, I’m reminded in not fun ways. :)

    Visiting from the TMI Linkup!

  34. What a beautiful reminder! I find that my perspective drastically shifts when I’m away too long from Him…thanks so much for sharing :)
    Rachael @ Diamonds in the Rough (http://parentingandhomeschoolinginfaith.com)

  35. Sarah Brooks says:

    Girl, you and your titles… they get me clicking over every time. (guess that’s kind of the point, Ehh?) Glad I did! I can SO relate to that. I have been in a yucky place for a while now. And my husband, who is almost only ever encouraging said my posts sound a bit forced lately. It’s so hard to get over myself and back into the arms of my father. I do want to get there though.

  36. Laura says:

    Oh, bless you, friend, for doing the hard work of self-examination. Your heart is stunning and brings the Lord so much glory. Beauty and truth, that’s what I’ve found here tonight.

  37. This reminds me of a work God has been doing in my heart about my own writing. My word for the year is vulnerable & I’m trying to more honestly share in what I post. I’m so glad I stopped in from the Teaching what Is Good blog hop to read this. Blessings!

  38. Jen Ferguson says:

    I am grateful for your honesty — what else can we be when we are seeking Him? May our journeys always be authentic as we press into the heart of God.

  39. Hazel Moon says:

    Thank you for sharing from your heart at “Tell Me a Story.” We do need to drink daily from the fountain, and eat of the bread of life so that we can share life with others.

  40. Linda Stoll says:

    boy … naming the truth sure can free us … thank you for your authenticity in this post!

  41. I know exactly where you’re coming from! I feel closer to where God wants me to be this blog go round than on my previous blog and I’ve noticed that it feels so much more right. Not that I don’t have a ways to go. But I am learning how to lean on and get closer to Him! Debbie @ ilovemylemonadelife.com

  42. Misty Kearns says:

    Great reminders! Sometimes I get so busy I don’t spend enough time with the Lord and that is when everything starts to fall apart. Thanks for linking up at Motivating Monday at CEO of Me this week!

  43. momstheword says:

    You know, sometimes you just need a good reminder. Thank you for these words today!

    I can totally see that my days go better when I am in the Word and staying close to my Savior than when I am too “busy” and going under my own power. We don’t even realize it sometimes, do we?

    Thanks so much for linking up to the “Making Your Home Sing Monday” linky party today! :)

  44. Jenipher says:

    I am a mother of high school and college students.
    This December due to my love for young children I planned to start a project for Early Childhood Education Center from next year. I plan to help less fortunate children (orphaned, disabled, etc)
    I was going through the internet when I felt that I need prayers and support from other women in Christ. Please partner with me in prayer.

    Jenipher

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